🔞SHADOW
SEDUCTION🔞
WRITTEN BY : NOEL INNOCENT
CHAPTER TWENTY NINE: ARTHUR HALLUCINATIONS 2
Sleep elude me.
Those have been my thoughts as I watch Arthur fall asleep after taking his medication, all these night Arthur Haven’t been able to sleep probably, he keeps seeing getting hallucinations of her, his condition isn’t getting better as fast as I thought.
It’s been three days, three days and he has gotten thiner, eyes weak, face pale.
Tears drop from my eyes as I hold his hand and watch him, am sure he will soon be awake “I didn’t mean to ” Arthur growl when he sit up, looking worried, when our eyes meet, he calm down and more tears drop from my eyes ” lacey ” he suddenly look sympathetic.
” Are you hungry?” He nod and I stood up
” Let me get you something to eat ” leaving his room, I step into the kitchen and open the pot of soup, he doesn’t even have appetite, he has been eating because of me, forcing himself.
I couldn’t help but to breakdown, my heart ache, ache for him, how horrible he is right now, he don’t deserve all these things, he never did anything wrong to suffer like this.
Falling down, I cried for the fifth time that day,cover my mouth and cry to my myself….Arthur voice startled me, those hallucinations must be back, I grab the tray, clean my tears I hurried back into his room.
” Arthur ” I stare at him, holding a knife ” no, you shouldn’t”
” I killed my own child lacey ”
” Please drop the knife ”
” I deserve to die ”
” You don’t ” I drop the tray on the bed and beg ” please drop the knife, it was just a dream, a dream and nothing more ” moving close, I hold the knife and he nod his head slowly, coming back to his senses.
” Lacey ” I successfully collect the knife and throw it out of the window ” what am I doing?” Tears flow from his eyes ” what is wrong with me? Why can’t I overcome this ”
” You will, it will just take awhile, I promise you will overcome this, it’s just a drug ”
” Am sorry ” he plead ” forgive me ” watching him breakdown, I help him back to the bed, feed him the soup ” this is really tasteless ” I chuckle and he smile ” lacey, you’re losing weight ”
” I haven’t been sleeping” I smile and he nod
” Because of me right?” I nod my head and he close his eyes ” I will try my best to get better in time, please lacey, please wait for me ”
” Arthur ”
” I know fully well that it has been three days, I have caused you nothing but trouble for three days, to be sincere, am scared to fall asleep” he open his eyes and look at me ” even I, Arthur Norman get scared too ”
” Arthur ” I hold his hand
” I have long wish to die you know” he smile ” that’s the main reason I kept Linda, I thought she would kill me but who knew he plan on making me suffer forever because of my sin”
I shake my head ” you did nothing wrong ”
” I killed someone”
” You pushed her by accident”
” No ” he shake his head ” she wanted breaking up and I won’t permit her to be with someone else, so I pushed her ” Arthur look at me in the eyes ” don’t make my sin seem less, I have killed many people”
” This is not fair ” I frown ” you don’t deserve this, don’t tell me otherwise”
” Fine ” he took his drug and close his eyes once more, I watch him sleep, the drug always have this effect, I look at my phone that buzzed, picked it up and stare at Edwin message and then my dad’s
*Meet me outside, am waiting*
*Come back home, forgive your father *
I stare at the messages, turn off my phone and look at Arthur, I don’t have the time to focus on anyone else right now, this man right here is my most priority.
I don’t know how many minutes passed before the door to the room slowly open, I swiftly turn around and stare at George, he look shocked to see Arthur laying hopelessly on the bed ” George”
” Why didn’t you say anything?” His voice, one could tell he is angry ” you should have told me about his condition”
I look away ” am sorry, I promise Arthur not to tell anyone, especially you ” I smile when George knelt down next to the bed, tears in his eyes ” he said he doesn’t want you to see him in this State”
” Is he getting better?”
I nod my head ” yes, hopefully he will be back to normal soon ” I lied, but I do hope he will get back to his normal self soon, I really want him to get better.
” Have he been taking his medication?” I nod ” the doctor did say it will get worse at some point before calming down”
” Oh ” I look at Arthur
” Thank you lacey” George smile ” thank you for being here for him, thank you so much ” I watch George leave before laying down next to Arthur and falling asleep.
Arthur slowly open his eyes and look around the room, the first time in three days, Christine didn’t show up the moment I opened my eyes, looking at my side, I stare at lacey, sleeping, she look so pale and thin ” am sorry ” whispering the words, I tuck her hair behind her ear and smile while tears drop from my eyes.
” Who am I to make you pass through all these hardships?” I mumble, touching her cheek ” am really horrible, aren’t I?” Sitting up, I slowly get off the bed, pick up my cigarette, light it and inhale the smoke.
” Smoking isn’t good for you ” hearing that voice, I turn around and stare at Christine standing Right there, another hallucinations huh ” you might actually die ”
” And end this suffering?” I smile ” won’t that be nice ” blowing out the smoke, I look outside the window ” I can’t leave yet though, someone might curse me ”
” But you killed me”
” I did ”
” And your child!!!” Her voice start to get louder, my heart rate increase but I refuse to act foolishly, lacey needs her sleep. Clenching my hands to my chest I slowly fall to my knees” don’t you think you also deserve to die? ” I stare at her, how blood drop from her eyes, her whole body looking bloody ” do you think you won’t kill her too?” I look at where her fingers are pointing, lacey. ” Just like how I got tired of your obsessive nature, she too….she too will leave you and you will try to kill her ”
” That’s not true ”
” I Know you have almost killed her before” I stare at Christine bloody hands , how she touch my cheek ” you belong in the other side, where you won’t be able to harm her again ” am no longer thinking straight, it is fact that I might end up killing her.
Shouldn’t I just die now than to kill lacey in the future, what was I even thinking, I could be happy? After killing my own child? That too with my hands? I deserve death, I deserve to die.
Leaving the bedroom, I walk into the kitchen and stare at the knives, maybe I should die, moving closer, I stop…my legs won’t take me closer to them ” what am I doing? Trying to kill myself?” Mumbling, I look at my hands, what is wrong with this body of mine? Do I really deserve to die?
Even if I have wrong so many people, do I need to leave lacey? Should I leave her all alone in this world? Can’t I even live with her? Don’t I deserve that?
I run my hands through my hair then notice that Christine vanished the moment my cigarette fall out of my mouth and I stop inhaling that smoke, I should stop smoking.
Being high probably is bad for my health now?
Turning around I stare at a worried lacey, how her hair is scattered, phone on her left hand while she hurriedly run down the stairs” Arthur!!!” Tears drop from her eyes ” Arthur!!!” Pain fill my heart to see her this way, how dare I try to end my own life.
Her eyes meet mine and I smile ” I was thirsty” she run into my arms without hesitation, still sobbing, her hands clench tight on my cloth.
” Please don’t leave me” she must have had a nightmare, using my hand, I pat her head and tears drop from my eyes, these days I cry like a child, it’s getting too much, one will mistake me to be a woman.
” Am here, I won’t leave ” I reply, returning the hug.
TBC
