♤Chapter Sixteen ♤
UNEDITED
JARDEN POV
I felt so stupid, very stupid. I get I was angry at Kiara about what she thought she was quite selfish but the truth is that I was more selfish. If we lose this baby I swear I will never forgive myself.
Seeing her close her eyes made my throat so dry.
“Mommy” Jon ran beside her holding her hands.
” why is she closing her eyes, what happened to her” Tears were swelling up in his eyes.
” she is gonna be okay” I said then immediately carried her in a bridal style.
” go get your sister now” Jon nodded running to the room. The ambulance was wasting time. Kiara was bleeding so much and I know what that meant. I was so stupid. Did I forget that she was pregnant? I was stressing her too much.
I ran into the hospital with Kiara in my arms, and even when the nurses brought a stretcher to put her on I refused. I wanted to be there for her. I carefully lay her on the hospital bed.
” sir you have to leave now” the nurse said. I glared at her before turning to Kiara’s sleeping eyes.
” sir you have to leave if you want us to save your wife” I sighed then kissed Kiara’s forehead.
” I’m sorry, love” I walked out of the room. Both Iris and Jon were outside the room they ran to me when they saw me.
” is momma okay?” Iris asked, I could see the dried tears on their face. Was this what I wanted?
“What did you do to her?” Jon retorted.
” she will be okay, Don’t worry” I assured before hugging them both.
” what about our baby sister?” Iris asked. That word brought tears to my eyes. I was the cause of what just happened. Sh|t!.
” she is gonna be okay” I pecked their forehead.
I called Kiara’s mom telling her about everything that happened. I could notice the deadly glare she gave me when she walked into the hospital. I deserved it, I know that.
I was also surprised when Sharon and Harald ran into the hospital looking so worried, how many things have I spoilt just in a day? First my relationship with Kiara, our baby and Sharon and Harald’s honeymoon.
“Can I see her husband?” The doctor asked looking at me.
” she doesn’t have a husband, I am her mother you can talk to me” Karly quickly said.
” I mean the man that got her pregnant ”
I walked with him into his office, I was so anxious to know what happened.
” your name?” He asked looking at me.
” jarden” I simply said.
” okay,” he said jolting down something.
” so.. we have both good news and bad news”. d@mn, this doctor should just get to the point.
” start with the bad news” he nodded.
” the bad news is that she lost the baby and she won’t be able to have another baby”. I nodded sadly.
” what was the cause?”.
” lack of sleep, stress, aggressive sëx” I gasped when he said the last part.
” aggressive sëx?” I asked still shocked.
” yh that’s if you guys had one while she was at the early stage of pregnancy, normally that doesn’t cause miscarriage but when there is lack of sleep and stress that means the aggressive sëx haded to it”.
Sh|t, I would have been easy on her.
” What’s the good news?” I asked eagerly. The doctor smiled.
” she survived and it seems like you were having twins, you lost one of the babies but the other one survived”.
Ahhh thank goodness, she was okay.
“it seems like your other baby was really strong but you have to take care of her because anything can happen ” I nodded.
” congratulations ” I shook his hands before walking out.
I told them everything the doctor told me. Although I was still mad at myself. I was the reason why we lost our baby, I was also the reason why we can’t have another child. We? Only if she accepts me again. I Fuçked up really bad.
I watched Kiara as she slept peacefully. I was happy that at least she was okay. I h@tëd myself for this. I was just angry that’s all I never meant anything that I said. I can’t even leave without her.
I kissed her cheeks slowly stroking her cheeks.
“İ love you” I murmured still stroking her cheeks.
I rested my head on the bed as I silently prayed. Prayed for Kiara and our unborn child.
” Mm” the sound of her voice made me jerk up instantly.
” Kiara” I called. She slowly opened her eyes trying to adjust to the brightness. I sat beside her holding her hands.
” What happened?” She asks then her hands go to her stomach.
” My baby” she forcefully removed her hands from mine.
” Jarden what Happened to my baby” tears already running down her cheeks.
” Calm down Kara” She tinted her eyes when I called her that name, then finally relaxed.
” pls tell me my baby is okay, pls Jarden” She grabbed my shirt.
” I need you to calm down first” although I did not want to tell her about everything yet.
” Calm down and hear what? Bad news, just tell me already Jarden pls”.
I smiled before pecking her forehead.
” Our little peanut is okay”. She didn’t look convinced at all.
” Pls I want the truth jarden don’t tell me things just to make me feel better” I held her bringing her into my arms.
” I am not lying”.
” Then why was I bleeding?”.
KİARA POV
I felt pain in my abdomen, it felt just like when I newly given birth. I opened my eyes and the first thing I saw was Jarden hovering over me.
“Kiara” he called. What was happening, why was I on the bed?
” What happened?” I ask, the realisation of what happened hits me like a storm, and my hands quickly touch my stomach. No no. my baby.
” My baby” I forcefully removed my hands from his own.
” Jarden what Happened to my baby” Uncontrollable tears began to run down my cheeks.
” Calm down Kara” he tried to assure me, at first I tinted my eyes by the name he called me.
” pls tell me my baby is okay, pls Jarden” I gripped his shirt tightly.
” I need you to calm down first” How was I going to calm down when I was not sure my baby was okay?
” Calm down and hear what? Bad news, just tell me already Jarden pls”. I sniffed, I can’t do that. I was surprised when Jarden smiled and then kissed my forehead.
” Our little peanut is okay”. I didn’t want to believe it. How? That was not possible.
” Pls I want the truth jarden don’t tell me things just to make me feel better” he held me bringing me closer to his arms.
” I am not lying”.
” Then why was I bleeding?”.
” Kiara I’m sorry, I didn’t mean that, I was stupid I love you a lot, and you make me feel better and even want to live more, I am the reason why all this happened, if I had just shut the Fuçk up and just told you everything was gonna be okay, all this nonsense would have not happened”. I stared at Jarden trying to understand where he was heading. I thought he said our baby was okay.
” I am the reason why we lost one of our babies, I am the reason why you can’t have any baby again, I am the reason why we are in this mess”
I was shocked to the core. We were going to have twins. I won’t be able to have any babies after this.
“Kiara I understand that…..”
” you don’t understand Sh|t” I cut him short exclaiming.
“Baby, I..”.
” don’t call me that, you broke up with me remember “.
” I was angry, I regret it a lot, pls pls let’s just try and work it out, Kiara I want to be there for our unborn child, I don’t want to miss a single day in his/her life, pls kiara. I admit I was stupid, I swear I didn’t mean anything about what I said I was eventually going to come and beg you but this happened” he held my two hands.
“Jarden you caused this, yes you can be in their lives but we can’t be together, we can’t work after what happened” Jarden was quiet, he just stared at me quietly.
” is that what you want?”. I know the decision I was making was stupid but I couldn’t be with him, he was ready to leave me not quite long.
” yes” he nodded then smiled.
” I’m sorry” he murmured before walking out of the room.
Once again I lost the love of my life.
TBC
