MY BESTIE & I.
04.
©️ Sha Ron ✔️
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I wrote my second semester exam after three months of his departure, I really missed him but I can’t think with my heart, I had to think with my head.
It’s a kinda crazy stupid thing to feel but I always feel lonely when he’s not there. I had to manage and read so I would pass my exams.
After my exams, I went to spend the holidays with family, and guess what? He came home too because his mom is sick, not a serious kinda sickness though.
But, don’t start thinking it was a memorable holiday because it wasn’t. He fell inlove with a girl, I should be happy for him, right?
Am not! I felt jealous and avoided him because in every of our meetings, he either brings her along or he keeps talking about her like she’s his life.
Do you remember the girl he saw at our graduation ceremony? I found out they are together, I found out the hard way though.
I went over to see him immediately I got home, when I tapped at the door, I expected to see my best friend standing at the doorway after opening it and smiling down at me as usual.
Or his sister with her I-don’t-smile face standing there asking me inside with a nod or waving when he isn’t around.
Or his mother with a truck load of questions to ask about my education and taking her time before she even thinks of notifying him about my presence.
Or his grandma hugging and kissing me like her lover or even his father with an expressionless face offering me a seat and a drink and a little talk before he releases me to go see him.
I was disappointed, I saw that girl, she wore his polo shirt and looked at me with a raised brow, “Who are you looking for?”
I felt sad seeing her round face and daring eyes. Oh, it has already gotten to this extent and he never told me, wow.
“Granny” I said with regret, should I boost her ego by asking after her boyfriend? Am not ready to face what comes after that.
“No one is at home left for me and mine” she said emphatically expecting me to get the message that mine is her boyfriend.
“Okay…” I was already backing off when he came into view from behind her with his chest bare and trousers loose.
“Babe!” He beamed and came to hug me. “You know her, right?” He asked, he doesn’t like that awkward moment of introducing a babe to another babe, I guess.
I only nodded and said, “I will like to be on my way now, I actually ran an errand for my mother and thought I should say hello to Grandma”
He didn’t question me, he saw me off and I didn’t simply go home, I took a long walk and tried not to think about what they would be possibly doing right then together.
“He can’t even ask me how am coping at school! He’s not ready to be disturbed when he’s with her, right!?” I h@tëd the sound of my voice as I jogged and mumbled to myself.
Why am I jealous? He’s just my bestie, it’s not like he owes me any explanation for loving a girl but my heart can’t help tearing apart, I don’t even understand my own feelings.
I started avoiding him and made excuses not to pick his calls, going online was out of the question because I don’t want to see her pictures on his status or him chatting about her, he paid me a surprise visit one day and caught me at home.
“Hi” he smiled at me after I opened the door and was looking at him like; ‘this mumu boy, can’t you see?’
“How far?” I said in my casual manner and left the door ajar for him to come in, but normally before, I use to hug him and show him a sit.
He didn’t come in, he stood there and watched me for a while before asking “are you avoiding me?”
“Who said that?” I denied batting my lashes so I wouldn’t meet his gaze.
It’s a stupid thing to do because he knows me just like his palms, I’m transparent where he is concerned, so am helpless.
“I said it because I know it! Anyways, it’s nice to keep away from someone but at least, don’t try to lie about it, sometimes, people get tired of friends and they would want to be alone”
He came inside then and hugged me, I stood like a statue even when he pecked me and went to sit down.
Did he say people get tired of seeing friends? Wow! I am now people and he’s just a friend! What a pity, Yvonne. The annoying truth is that I can never get tired of seeing him!
Not even when he’s not with me, I look at his pic first thing in the morning, I watch our fun video skits during lunch and I envision his image every night and his voice lures me to sleep.
How do I even get tired of seeing someone that had a grasp on me from the very first day I met him? Doesn’t he feel even half of what I feel for him?
“Wh@tëver” I commented with a shrug, he should think wh@tëver he wants to think, that pumpkin looking girl has turned his head upside down.
I feel like strangling him but another bitter truth is that I can’t even imagine him getting hurt, I can’t stand that.
“Hey! Where’s that cheerful bestie of mine, I’m sure am looking at an imposter right now” he joked but I didn’t find it funny.
“I was…doing something inside before you came” I said walking away and he just watched.
Am doing something inside? ? What was I doing except thinking of him while I guess the only person on his mind is his girlfriend? Aish!?
What’s even wrong with me? He’s just my best friend and what I feel for him isn’t supposed to be there, I just have to go back to school and stop daydreaming.
He has a girlfriend now, he won’t look twice at me without seeing her or talking about how she’s the perfect person and how good they are together.
I went inside my room and jumped to bed, I threw the sheets over my body and buried myself in thoughts.
“Yvonne?” He called opening my door, I looked up at him with hope that he followed me into my room to say something better.
Do you know what he said?
“I actually came here to tell you a very important thing, her birthday is next week and I was thinking you would help me plan a surprise party for her”
Seriously?! ? Jeez! His words split my heart into two, why? He’s doing the right thing but it’s breaking my heart…why?
“Am sorry I can’t help you, I will be going back to school tomorrow!” I said furiously and threw the sheets over my head to conceal my vexed face.
“Schools are still on holidays… anyways, safe travels and be a good babe!” He said and tapped my leg before he left.
When I heard the door click shut, my heart broke into a thousand pieces. Before I know what’s up, I’m already crying like a baby craving for his mother.
This world no just balance, am falling for him while he’s inlove with another! Nawa o?
TBC.
