??Its Too Late??
Chapter 46
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Not to mention the Fuçking schizophrenia Sh|t. Shower with your clothes on, check the lock on a door a few times and people think you’re losing your Fuçking mind. I had to do it, though. I know myself and I knew if I found out my suspicions were true and Sloan was Fuçking someone else, that I would more than likely lose my Sh|t and murder the guy. I can’t very well murder someone and run the risk of being tried as a mentally competent adult. I had to have a back-up plan so I wouldn’t rot in Fuçking prison like my father did most of his life.
Maybe it wasn’t a complete waste. I at least have the “schizophrenia” to fall back on if I ever need it. Which I probably will eventually, because Luke is still breathing.
When I make it back to my cell, I fall down onto the bed as the bars clank shut behind me. I can’t help but smile.
This whole thing is turning out so beautiful. Sloan will take some time to come around again, but I know she will. Especially once Luke is out of the picture for good. I’ll have to somehow look past the fact that Luke has been inside her. I can Fuçk him out of her, though. I’ll just have to Fuçk her a whole goddamn bunch and in every position until I no longer think about him when I look at her.
“What are you so Fuçking happy about?” a voice says.
I turn my head and look at my cellmate. I can’t remember his name. He’s asked me about a million questions since I was thrown in this cell with him, but this is the first time I actually answer him.
“I’m about to be a free man,” I tell him, staring up at the ceiling with a huge goddamn Fuçking smile on my face. “Which means I finally get to marry my fiancé. In a real wedding. With a three-tier coconut cake.”
I can’t help but laugh, just thinking about it.
I’m coming for you, Sloan. Whether you think you want me to or not.
You promised to love me.
Forever.
And you Fuçking will.
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*Introduction to Epilogue*
You guys didn’t really think I would do that to you, did you?
Happy 4/20!
SLOAN POV
I bring the cup of coffee to my mouth. My hands are shaking so bad, it makes tiny little black waves of coffee crash against the sides of my cup.
I glance over at the clock on the far wall. Three in the morning.
It’s been two days since Asa’s case was thrown out. He was bailed out that afternoon. Luke and I were sent to this apartment in the city for protection until the next hearing.
It’s a nice apartment, but when I’m too scared to step outside or even look out the window, it feels more like a prison. Luke has assured me over and over that there’s no way Asa will find us here. But what Luke probably doesn’t understand is that even if Asa is locked up in prison the rest of his life, I’ll still constantly be looking over my shoulder. If it isn’t Asa himself that could hurt me or Luke, I wouldn’t put it past him to hire someone else to do it.
I turn my head when I hear the bedroom door open. Luke walks out, rubbing the sleep out of his eyes. He’s wearing black jogging pants that hang off his hips and no shirt. The bandages from his wound cover most of his chest. He’s barefoot, shuffling across the hard wood floor toward me.
He reaches the back of the couch and I lean my head back and look up at him. He leans forward and kisses my forehead upside down. “You okay?”
I shrug. “I can’t sleep. Again.”
His eyes are sympathetic and he lifts a hand, brushing my hair off my forehead. “Sloan,” he says quietly. “You don’t have to worry here. He can’t find us. We’re safe until his next trial, I promise.”
I nod again, but his words do little to comfort me. I’ll never trust Asa, no matter how safe I should feel.
He walks around the couch and sits down, pulling me onto his lap until I’m straddling him. He wraps his hands around my lower back and says, “What can I do to help you sleep?”
I smile. I like his distraction methods. “It’s only been two weeks since you were released. You have two more to go.”
His hands cup my @$$ beneath his oversized t-shirt I’m wearing. He slides his fingers beneath the edges of my P@ntiës, sending chills over me and forcing Asa out of my head for a few seconds. “I wasn’t thinking about sëx with you,” he says. “I was thinking more along the lines of what I could do for you.”
One of his hands slides around to my stomach and then up to my Brë@št. His thumb brushes my N?pplë at the same time his tongue slides across my lips. He kisses me, deep, then pulls back just as I start to grow dizzy.
“I’ll be careful,” he says. “My hands and mouth will do all the work, but I’ll make sure the rest of me takes it easy. Okay?”
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know I should encourage his recovery, but every time he touches me, it calms me down. Makes me less nervous.
I need that right now.
“Okay,” I whisper.
He smiles and then pulls off my shirt. His mouth covers my right Brë@št, and after giving that one attention, he moves to my left. Then he pushes me until my back is against the couch and he’s hovering over me. His lips drag across my mouth, my neck, my Brë@šts. His breath warms up every part of me while his hand works it’s way inside my P@ntiës.
He adjusts me until I have one leg lifted over the back of the couch and one leg on the floor. He rests his lips against mine and whispers, “Watch me.”
I open my eyes, just as his fingers slip inside me. I Mõ@n, struggling to keep my eyes open, but he likes the eye contact.
I like it, too. It’s new for me.
In the past, with Asa, I’ve always kept my eyes shut tight because I never wanted to look at him.
With Luke, I’m scared I’ll miss something. I don’t want to miss the way he looks at me, the way he responds to my noises. I love the eye contact.
He presses his thumb against me while his fingers remain inside of me and we only have to keep eye contact for no more than thirty seconds, because that’s all it takes for his touch to completely send me over the edge. As soon as I start shaking beneath him, he claims my mouth with his, swallowing his name as it flows from my lips. He kisses me until it’s over, and then lowers himself until he’s pressed against me. I can feel him bulging through his sweatpants and it creates another need in me.
“I think I’m better,” he says, moving his hips against me. “I’m pretty sure it’s safe to be inside you now.”
His voice is gravelly—needy—and it would be so easy just to push down his sweatpants and let him fill me. But I would feel terrible if something bad happened because we were too impatient to wait the recommended time. His heart may not be strong enough for that yet.
“How about we compromise?” I whisper. “One more week and then we’ll take it really slow.”
Luke groans against my neck, but pulls back. “One more week,” he agrees. “But then be prepared for multiple times a day. I have a lot of catching up to do.” I laugh as he sidles up to my side, pulling me against him. I’m facing him, my hands on his chest. I trace my fingers around his bandage.
“I wonder what your scar will look like,” I whisper.
His hand meets my hair and he runs his fingers through it, down my back, over my arm. “I don’t know,” he says. “I just hope you kiss it a lot.”
I laugh. “Don’t worry, once we’re in the clear, you’re gonna have a hard time keeping my mouth off you. I like your body too much.” I look up at him. “Is that shallow? That I like looking at you with your shirt off?”
He shakes his head with a grin. “Nah. The first thing that attracted me to you was your @$$.”
“I thought it was the drool on my chin when you woke me up in class that first day.”
He nods. “Yeah. You’re right. It was definitely the slobber.”
I laugh. I love that he’s able to make me laugh at a time like this. Our lips meet and we kiss for a solid five minutes. Until he starts to press into me again. I feel terrible that he’s being tortured so much, but there’s no way I’m allowing him to go against doctors orders. I need him to be as healthy as he can as soon as he can. I push him away and try to change the subject to something that will help him recover.
“Do you think you’ll get to see your mother soon?” I ask him.
He talks about his mother a lot. I h@të that we’re in hiding right now, because that means he can’t see her until the next hearing is over and Asa is hopefully behind bars again.
Of course, there’s a chance he’ll walk free again. But we don’t talk about that possibility.
“We’ll see her when this is all over. She’s going to love you for me.”
I smile, wondering what that’s like to have a mother who loves you. I start to think about my only family-Stephen-and then my smile fades.
Luke notices, because he runs the backs of his fingers over my cheek. “What’s wrong?”
I try to shake away his concern. “Just thinking about Stephen,” I say. “Hoping he’s safe during all this.”
Luke’s hand finds mine and he slides his fingers through it. “He’s safe, Sloan. He has twenty-four hour security. You don’t have to worry about him, I made sure of it.”
I h@të that Asa has put us in this situation. A situation where I can’t even see my brother. Luke can’t even see his mother. We can’t leave this apartment. And we have to have security for anyone we love….
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T..B..C
