❣️IT WASN’T LUST❣️
🌹EPISODE 5🌹
JOSY’S POV
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I took my bath in tears and pains, getting to wash my private part, it hurts like hêll and little particles of blood still oozed out
I yelled in agony and cursed my self for coming into the world very wretched and forgotten.
I narrated the whole incident that happened to me to my friend and roommate and she felt very sorry for me and advised me to go for medical checkup the next day so as to ascertain that their is no complications, STDs or having a baby (pregnancy)
I saw reasons to what she said and decided to go, even if it means spending my life savings because I don’t want to be a victim of rãpe and that of carrying unwanted pregnancy or contacting any form of sëxuålly transmitted diseases.
I can’t eat the food that was given to me by UC because I don’t have any appetite whatsoever to eat any food at that moment
Uc pleaded with me countless times to eat but even as much as I tried to eat, I can’t possibly eat anything at that point
I lay down on the bed to sleep, but sleep was very far from me, I tried all I could to sleep so as not to think about my miserable life but sleep was very unkind and unfriendly to me at that point in time.
I lay like a lifeless being and the events of my miserable life started to replay in my head starting from my childhood
I don’t have a father, I don’t have a mother, I have nobody in life am just like an abandoned child.
I was brought up by an aunty who maltreats me like I don’t mean a d@mn thing in the world, she calls me a wïtch every time and told me that my birth brought nothing but pains to this world
She accused me of kíllïng both my parents and always threatens to throw me out of the house at any little provocation
I have always tried to do my best to please her, her husband and children but nobody regards me, they always sees me as a cursëd child
The food I ate in that house was just like a poïson to my stomach because I have never enjoyed any meal peacefully without been cursëd
Each meal I ate in that house I ate with tears
What happened was that, she picked me up when I was just five years old after the demised of my parents in a terrible and ghastly motor accident
Aunty Amaka who has been married for 9years without any child took me as her child and treated me like her child not until after a year in that house,
I brought good luck to her and she conceived and bore a child, first was a baby girl and later on another child arrived, a baby boy and before you knew it, I became an enémy, a trouble maker, a cursëd child, and a child of sadness up until now.
Well, I won’t deny the fact that she gave me food, clothed me and sheltered me as the primary basic of human needs in life.
I recalled the dreadful events that happened which made her to throw me out of her house and shut the door on me even when I tried as much as possible to prove my innocence it all failed on her deaf ears
I was 13years old then, one day after taking my bath, I went into the room to dress up, I never knew that my uncle is already in my room hidden.
I untied my towel after rubbing cream, my uncle grabbed me trying to mølest and rãpe me, God was too faithful enough that I wriggled free from his hold and ran away
I stayed outside until my aunty came back home, before I could try to explain everything to her, she has given me three resounding slaps, pushed me out of her house with nothing just the only cloth I was putting on at that point.
She accused me of trying to sêduce her husband, and promised to kïll me if she he ever finds me anywhere around her house ever again
Hot tears roll down my cheek remembering this painful memory
That was how I was thrown out to the street at the tender age of 13. At that time I was in jss3 and managed to write junior waec with the help of one of my friend who begged her parents to accommodate me
They lived in a one room apartment and were 8 in number including her mother and father making it 10 and my self that’s 11 in a single room.
They are very accommodating but I find it uneasy to attach my self in a family of 10 whose managing to make ends meet, I don’t want to be an extra burden to their already burdened up family.
I stayed there for three months and left after my junior waec exams although they persuaded me to stay but I refused
I have been struggling to survive for years, sometimes I slept under people’s staircase, sometimes I slept in a spoilt vehicle and sometimes I slept in an uncompleted building and people’s shop
At 14yers, I got a job as a maid in one rich man’s house, I worked there for 6months they were kind to me but their only son was so silly, a pérvert and sëx addict, he has numerous girlfriends but yet he won’t let me be
Most a times, he tries to rãpe me but in one way or the other I always manage to escape from him. When it became so devastating and demoralizing, his actions became so unbearable that at the sight of me, his dïçk will stand like a machine gun ready to take a shot.
I know staying back will curse more harm than good for me so I resigned my job. My madam and oga pleaded with me to stay back and even promised to send me to school but I discharged them with the excuse that I want to go back to the village and take care of my sick mother.
I made enough money within that 6months I worked there and then used the money to rent this apartment
I will be 21 years next week only if I did not commit süicidê before my birthday because the shock and trauma of how I was half rãped by a thug has eaten me up and besides I don’t have anybody or anyone that I will give account of my life to except God
Soo I believe that God understand because He was specifically the one that has contributed to my suffering all my life because he allowed me suffer….. More tears roll down my cheek.
I looked at my room mate who is lying like a log of wood snoring gently as her breath rises and falls
It reminded me of her own conditions and odds in life
Her case was as similar as mine but the difference is that her parents are still alive
She’s 23 years just two years older than me I came in contact with her when she was 19 years
She got pregnant at home and the guy who impregnated her denied her, the guy came from a wealthy background so she has no say because her life was threatened along the line.
So because she cannot provide the person that impregnated her, her father been a pastor chased her out of the house.
TBC
