The following day, I went to Kamal’s place, he’s living in a big house. He’s a big boy, I go to his
place, he was the only one at home, we talked, we ate, we had series of sëx, he was just
pounding me, the way he handled me was fantastic, we had sëx in the bathroom too. Kamal told me he would love to be my boyfriend, he was interested in dating me. I agreed and we made love again and again, it was a protected sëx all through cos I was nervous, Kamal even insisted we have unprotected sëx. After the sëx, I received another text message from Tobi once again, reminding to go for test if I don’t want to die. I was nervous, very nervous…
I made up my mind to go to the clinic the following day for check up, I was really scared. That
was the third time he sent a message, I was so impatient. The following day, I quickly woke up,
told Kamal I was leaving, he never even wanted me to go, he was begging me to stay for a while.
He even told me to move in with him, I begged me to let me go that I was gonna come back, I lied
to him that it was an emergency. He allowed me, he gave me 10k when I was leaving, he was even
the one that dropped me at the bus stop. When I got to Yaba, I decided to visit one gay clinic in
Yaba, yes! There is a gay centre in Yaba, funded by an organization, they deal with gay,
treatment of disease, seminars, orientation and lot more. It was one of my friend that actually
told me about the place, I never believed it until I got there. I don’t even know if they are legal in
Nigeria or not, I walked into the place, I met some guys in there. They were many and most of
them are gays and lesbians, I even know some of them, I demanded to see the doctor, I was
given a leaflet also. To cut the long story short, I met Doctor Shola who gave me some advices. I
was eventually tested, I tested positive to warts and I also tested positive to HIV. I screamed, I
didn’t believe it, what is Wart? He told me the sore in my anus is what they called Wart and it
doesn’t heal permanently but there is treatment for it which is temporary. What about HIV? I
told them to retest me again, it was still the same thing. HIV? I cried profusely, I was advised to
give them the contact of the people I had sëx with, I declined. I left that place, the following day I
went to another clinic again for another test, it was still positive. I was taken to a place I will be
counselled, I got there and I met old people there, most them were illiterate, I was the youngest, I
was dumbfounded, I was in shock. I got to the hostel, I called Tobi, his number wasn’t going
through. I logged into Facebook to reach him, I discovered his account was deleted already. I was
crying, really crying. My phone rang, it was one of my friend that called me, he informed me that
my best friend is dead, Gbenro died. I screamed, I was shivering, I was shouting, I almost ran
mad. My hostel mate came to my rescue, they sympathized with me, I was nervous, crying
bitterly.
In the evening, I got a call from Kamal but I didn’t pick it. I was still in shock, that day was still the worst day of my life. I picked up my phone crying bitterly, sent a text message to my mother to inform her that I was HIV positive, I informed her I was infected by a guy I had sëx with, I don’t even know who infected me honestly. I apologized, begged her to forgive me that I didn’t listen to her. I told her I was about to commit suicide, nothing is left for me in this world, I’m a black sheep.
I tried committing suicide, what else is left for me in this world? Gbenro is dead, what else am I
looking for? I opened the door and walked out of the hostel bare footed late in the night,
everyone was asleep. The gate was locked, but I found my way out of the hostel, while walking
on the road, I received a text message from Kamal, saying he’s in love with me and he misses
me. I smiled, Kamal? Do you guys remember Kamal was somehow the person that disvirgined
me homosëxually, he was the first person that made me really wanted to be gay, he ruined my
life, he was the first person that I had gay experience with and can you imagine he’s also the last
person. This life is beautiful, I made a mistake, I saved Kamal’s life, i should have had
unprotected sëx with him, I should have given him HIV as a punishment for molesting me when I
was a kid but I didn’t, I was too kind enough, don’t you think Kamal deserves to be infected with
HIV? Everything fallen apart for me, my phone keeps ringing, my mum kept on calling, my dad
kept on calling me, my sisters too, but I was lost in sorrow, I was weeping profusely, I was
depressed. I kept on walking, walking till I got to Oshodi express, I decided to take my life by
jumping in front of a Danfo Bus, I was hit by a Danfo Bus and I died.
